The more I think about my career, see the lives others are living, hear how old they are and how accomplished they already are, and discuss the life I want to live with my girlfriend, the more I realize I need flip my attitude toward life around. I feel that I have the drive and motivation, but my rationalism causes me to rethink thoughts I haven’t even set it motion yet. I feel like I don’t have time to turn my life around, until I remember I’m 24 and have plenty of time to get things the way I want them, the life I want to live, the life I want to share with girl who means the world.
Work has been sucking the life out of me over the past few months, I thought working on cars would be a great job, fun, exciting; I was right for the first year I worked there, not now? Not so much. I constantly stress what I’m doing at work, losing confidence in the work I do, thinking about what my paycheck will be. The automotive business is a work-ethic lacking business thanks to how scummy most people are about making money.
With all this piling on and seeing how its slowly affecting my family, my relationship, and me, I finally open my eyes to kick myself in the ass and look for a new job. I want a complete career change, currently my online IT classes haven’t been touched in 2 weeks because I get beat from work, but now I see an opening for a quickly growing car company and realize I have to take that chance especially if it means saving my sanity. Work may be tough right now, but I need to buckle down and take it. Millionaires didn’t get rich without taking changes, how is it any different for me? So what if I don’t get a job after I apply, the whole point is to apply and see rather than not do it and never know what could have been.
This summer will be my wake up call for life, the push to make my life what I want it. Nothing good comes easily, sometimes you have to fight.